the pagan way – so what? 8. January 2010

This is kinda triggered by Waldfrau …..

The longer I’m on that path (whatever that may be) the less important the sabbats or the ecclectic wheel of the year in general seem to be. Some celebrations are “felt” and I enjoy the special feeling they bring…but no need for celebrations.

I even wonder when I had the last “proper rite” for a festive day. Ages ago….last Beltane I had a sponateous action on my own in the garden. Just some smudging, some prayers, planting a flower – full stop. No big deal with circles or whatsoever. I simply feel that there is no need for it. Especially as I can’t really relate to a “call the different gods”-thing as I’ve always believed that there is just one power /God who’s all in one: all gods are one God if you want to put it that way. And I don’t care at all whether it’s “male” or “female”. It is God – it is “it” and calling it God instead of goddess does not bring me any bad feelings – simply because that male/female thing is of no matter to me (as explained).

Yes – I still have an affinity for the Egypt gods and systems – but only because I own (and looove) my small Isis and esp. my cherished Osiris does not mean I need to kneel down and invoke them. I know several people who have told me the gods would not be amused if I call them all “aspects of a whole” without admitting their personality. Mh – don’t think so – maybe I’ll be thinking different again one day -> if your own picture of “God” does not vary from time to time and change under the influence of life…sorry to be telling you that your religious development is not moving on (check Oser + Gmünder if you want to )

So – coming back to the start: what is “the pagan” way? I’ve come from an interest in wicca over different systems of belief to the state I’m in now: I don’t need huge rites with tonz of tools or whatsoever. I have found my way of talking to the power, using it in myself – which includes being able to be talking to Wiccas/Eclectics/Asatru….Pagans (to shorten it) and still go to church every now and then without feeling “diverted”. Both parts belong together in myself and for myself. What’s really getting on my nervers in this respect is other pagans blaming me for not being a “proper pagan” (sometimes I think there was an amandment to the Rede, saying “Thou shalt hate the church to be a real Wiccan”)….and I know Kate will partly agree so at least I’m not alone….

Why can’t “the pagan way” not simply be something “mixed”? No stories of patchwork-religion and how bad it is to take only the best of differnt systems. That’s not what I intented either…ah – I guess I better stop the rambling for a minute and control my thoughts — or leave it to comments to trigger a clearer speech of myself

A new year and a room with a view 4. January 2010

So here we are – with start into the new year! Hope you all had a good start.

I haven’t been online much lately – at least not for boards or blogs. Kate would certainly call it hibernation – and maybe that’s quite exactly what it is/was. I simply stayed to myself a lot, kept things inside, nourished thoughts ans all such things. So many things were to consider for the future:

we’ve got a construction site in our house from this week on and all had to be planned for it. Plus I had to get my CVs out – not that it was very useful: no job in sight so far! Ok – no steady one – there  are options by now which all came out of the blue. That’s the way it goes, isn’t it? *hehe*

Well, right now I’m still enjoying the Twelve Days (or found as Twelve Nights as well). It’s a time for introspection and confronting your own fears and ideas. A time to look at your true wishes and start working on them or planning for it. And of course a time to have a look into your own future  – the next year. As you might know, the Twelve Days (starting with the night from 25th to 26th of Dec) each stand for a month of the year coming up. Therefore I’veveen taking my tarot cards out each night  for a couple of years by now. Last year I used my Tarot of Secrets. This year the Tarot of the Secret Forest simply yelled at me and I really had more than an urge to use it. You know…it don’t quite like using it …. because I love it as it tells me “too much” from time to time. It speaks to me in a way, as it’s a very intuitinal deck – it gets to you! So this year it’s the Secret Forest…

What do I do exactly? Well I have stopped taken only one card and use the following spread:

…….2

3………..4

…….1

1 = Main Card of the month showing a general tendency

2= on the spiritual and mental level / in my head

3= emotional level / in my heart

4= material level / job

It’s worked really well for me – last year the results really were amazing!

So why room with a view? Due to the construction site we had to place the study in another room. And now there’s a lot of space  plus my desk is in a wonderful position: I have a good view out of the window onto our hazelnut on one side of the house and a view to the back garden at the same time. I love it – can’t wait to finish everything up there and put everything back into place. Yet it’s the “putting things in place” again that I dread SUre you understand – can’t wait to have everything done in here

Back into some hibernating silence….

The Fairy