Again those thoughts hunt me… or rather pictures…I’m confronted with Shamanic Stuff over and over again lately and I feel the urge to get over talking about a shamanic travel and finally do it.
I want to be there and run… 
Then again I’m kept by my own fears and thoughts :
- concentrate on your exams first –> in a few weeks you’ll have time and mind for all travels, meditations and everything you haven’t found the time for during the last years
- don’t run the risk of having to work with the results you get before you’re don working with things on earth
- maybe the teacher you’ve shortly met “there” will be very helpful for your exams i nthe real world either
- maybe that teacher won’t even be there anymore, since you haven’t travelled again ever since meeting him – and that’s a couple of years in the past
- travelling all by your own might not be the best idea anyway
- nothing can happen to you
- …..
You see – I’m torn. interesting thing is: it’s really been a couple of years eversince the last “real” shamanic travel. Yet I’ve hat short “encounters” during meditations. Never again with that “teacher” I’ve met. I’ve been wondering for ages whether it was just what I “wanted” to see during the travel and wished for – or for real. It’s a little too cliché to met an native-indian looking man on your travel, holding out his hand to you, help you over an “edge” that seemed like a step between two different “levels” of a world and say “Finally – I’ve been waiting for you”. Or is it?
Well – and during the last 2 years I’ve had my nose “thrown” into Shaman stuff whereever I looked. And every now and then this picture of the man comes up in my thoughts… and here I sit wondering, whether it would be good for my health and thoughts to travel “straight away” and see what it can do or wait until the next three weeks are over and exams made?
Will it help release stress or will it bring even more? Do I have the time and place to travel? Do I dare on my own?
And which world do i belong to… that travelling one…or am I a moondancer…or does ist matter at all?
I hadn’t read this until today – wow. Your inner conflict between shamanism / paganism is so much like the one I was having between Tao / paganism. These paths, in different ways, are all very similar, so it makes the confusion more pronounced! All have a basis in nature, but the practices and details are different.
You’ll know which path is your path, when the time is right. And let me know [in letters of course, or emails] any more thoughts you have had about this sort of thing. I’ve been through a spiritual shift recently [well, it took a year], so I understand
Oh – don’t worry – I’ll let you know about those things in letters for sure
It’s still so strange…I’ve had my nose thrown into anything Shamanic eversince I can think….maybe I have ignored it once too often and really should get back into those ideas. Then again I’m not having the peace I’d love to for it at the moment with all the construction-stuff here. And the security-part of my self keeps telling me about the dangers of travelling on your own. Which might be so ridiculous – there’s only been like one person telling me and it was enough to scare me off *awww*
Ah we’ll see….I have a strong feeling that January is gonna settle a lot of things…also taking proof in my cards for January.
Besides that: it’s so interesting to see your thoughts have basically taken the same path